Then i went back to work for one day and the next day i fall sick badly. And the doctor gave me 2 days MC. Then on Friday which is the 2nd day of my MC. I nearly breakup with my dear because i feels that he does not care about me at all. What happen was, he did not even care to ask how am i doing and he said that he will call but he did not and the only time that he ask is when he finish playing his games and message me in the middle of the night and ask me how am i feeling. I feels sad and so hurt. Because i was sick, the only phone call that i received the whole say since Thursday is my mother. She keeps calling me and ask me how am i feeling? Do i feel better? Did i eat my meal and have i taken my medicine. I really loves my mother very very much. And what have my dear do? He did nothing even when i message him on Thursday morning to tell him that i am going to see doctor. After that i did not hear anything from him except that he call me in the afternoon and ask whether i have my dinner already and ask me to have it myself because he will be having with his friends. And he did said that he will call be later but i keep waiting and hoping that he will call but he did not. That is why i am so hurt. And when he message me in the middle of the night, i am really angry and i vent my anger on him. I did not hope that he will be there with me, i just hope that he will care about me. That is all i am hoping for. I just hope that he will care when i am sick.
On Friday afternoon, he ask me out to have lunch but after the lunch and on our way back he did not even hold my hand or anything. I feels hurt. I don't know what to do and after i get into my house i message him. I told him that i feels that i am not important to him at all. I told him that i don't know where i stand in his heart. It seems like his gaming is more important until he does not even message me when he is playing games and like i am totally transparent to him. And he said that i have sky high expectation on him. What he want to to provide me with what i want and hope that i am leading a comfortable life. He is there to give me what i don't have. And saying that i am the one that is hoping for the relationship to end because of my sky high expectation. So i ask him what does he want me to do? I tell him to make a decision. If i am too much for him, he can choose to give me up and tell me that he does not love me anymore. So i ask him whether is it the end of our relationship and he say no. Then i promise him that i will never ever ask for anything from him anymore. As long as i am happy now then it's enough. I am not sure whether i can do it or not, but i do hope that this relationship will only gets better and not worse. I hope that he understand that i don't hope that he will be there with me every time as long as he shows that he care and love me and also that i am in his heart then it's enough. Is it too much that i am asking for?
Today Saturday night, after dinner with dear at somewhere near Hougang or Serangoon, we went to his friends place to play Mahjong. He is playing Mahjong with his friends while i am here writing my blog and also downloading my comics on my iphone. At least i won't be so bored at home and some more i have finish reading my comics during my sick and resting at home and also i have already overused my data plan. So i really need to download more comics. I wish that he is winning right now.
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