It December already

Time pass really fast and it's already December. And it's time to make new year resolution again. Lets start with my career first. Might be changing job next year, still not confirm yet because all depends on the situation. Since i have already work in this company for 3 years now. And the salary that i get will be higher, i am afraid that if i jump to another company then my pay will be very low. That is what i am afraid of because there is too many things that i need to consider before i jump to a new company. But all i hope now is the the increment is good as what i see the business of our company is doing really good and a lot of new projects are coming in.

Second things will be about my family. Hope that i can provide them a better place to stay. I am really trying my best to provide what they need. But i also need to think about my own future as well. That is why i have to start planning now. First thing is to clear up all my debts and also to get a PR as soon as possible because after i got my PR then i can look for part-time job at night so that i can support them even more and have a more comfortable life.

The third thing is about my relationship. I hope that my relationship with him will be better and better each passing day. Although sometimes i will feels that he totally forgotten about me but sometimes he do care a lot about me. Like how he take time to accompany me and my family which makes me feels that i am important to him. But at time he can actually forget about me and like does not care about me at all. Is this some kind of tactic to keep the relationship goes on??Maybe meeting each other too much is really not a good thing. But anyway i will not put in too much expectation on this relationship and also i will not hope for too much as well because i don't want to get hurt again if this does not work just like the previous relationship. So i want to keep this relationship simple and free.

I called my cousin from New York just now and chat with her for about an hour. It's been really long time i never call her. Hope that my phone bill is not super expensive this time. If not i will be really dead. Human can really change a lot. I never thought that she can be so mature and can take good care of herself and also plan for her own future. I am really proud of her. But i feels that i am more useless than her because i don't even earn as much as she does. I really feels ashame of myself. Anyway i hope that everything will be fine for her over there and hope that i can meet her soon because i have not meet her for years. Life is really an amazing thing and there is really a lot of things that you can discover in your life, like friends, family, colleague and also people around you.