13th Of December

It's my dear's birthday today. Yesterday i have already accompany him the whole day and also have dinner with him and his family to celebrate his birthday. It is a very quiet day for us. We did not plan to go anywhere and just stay at home and play our games. I don't know whether he will find me boring or not but i hope that he does not mind being with such a bored girlfriend. After the dinner we went home and watch tv for awhile and after that i went back home to rest because still need to work. But before i went to sleep, i did call him and talk to him. I do think that he is really a simple kind of guy that will not expect too much. Maybe that is why he is always happy, but the other way round i am those kind of people that will think a lot even the most tiniest things will make me think of a lot of silly things. That is why he told me. Maybe i am too emotional, sensitive, and sentimental.

We talk on the phone for about 10-20mins. Then hang up because he need to do something. So i went to play my games and watch my movie on the laptop. Before i sleep i keep thinking to myself, why am i so sensitive, emotional and sentimental? Why do i have to be like that? Is it because of this my ex boyfriend left me because he can't stand it? Will my dear leave me too if i keep on being so emotional, sensitive and sentimental? I really don't know. The only solution to this is to change myself. But i know that it's not easy because we are talking about my own character, my personality. But i will try my very best to change myself. I will try not to think too much. No matter what the future holds for me. I will just accept it with open heart. I wan to be a happy and cheerful person to make people around me happy.

Today i went to work as usual. Thinking how to make my dear happy tonight since i promise him that i will treat him for dinner at Ashton to celebrate his birthday. Then suddenly around 11.30am i received call from my dear. I thought that he was at home, but he is not. So i ask him where he is, and he told me that he is here in chinatown because he needs to meet up with a client near his head office. So i meet him for lunch. It's been such a long time that i did not meet my dear for lunch and also breakfast. Last time we use to meet once awhile to have breakfast or lunch. I remember when i am still staying at chua chu kang he will once awhile send me to work and have breakfast with me and then he will went back home and sleep again or do his things. I am always happy whenever i get the chance to meet him to have dinner or lunch or just about anything. But just that sometimes the things that he do makes me feels that he does not care, or his love towards me are fading away.

Anyway i hope that we can have a very pleasant dinner tonight to celebrate his birthday. Wishing my dear a very happy birthday and may all his wishes comes true on this very special day. May he be healthy, happy and handsome always.. love him really much..