A Tiring Day... or Hurt

I have not write for a few days now. Some happy and unhappy moment happen to me last weekend. How can someone be so forgetful until they forgotten the one that they loved like an item or a task. It does hurt me a lot when i know that he can totally forget about me. Maybe i am not that important to him at all. It makes me wonder what is actually going on in his mind at that time. Because we went in together and he can actually forget about me and let me waited for 10mins and also to take up the courage to open the male washroom to call his name. What am interesting experience to me. I have never ever forget about him. Sometimes i do think that he told me that he loves me everyday, but does he really mean it? Can some one utter the 3 words without even mean it? I can swear that whenever i told him that i love him, i really mean it from the bottom of my heart and it feels like when i first utter the 3 words to him when we start dating and my heart will beat very fast. I won't what does he feels like when he told me that he loves me or miss me.. Does he really mean it or it's just a daily routine to him to utter those words to me or just to make me feels happy. If he does not mean it, then i rather he don't utter it to me, because i know that i will be very hurt if i know that he does it just because it's a routine.

My happy moment is that i went over to my friend house and help her clean up the house because one of his colleague is moving in with her for temporary. I knew her colleague too. He is really fun to be with and really funny. He always make us laugh. Although cleaning up the whole place are really tiring, but it makes me feels that the bond between me and my friends are strong. We have been there for each other no matter what happen. This is how close we are. Although we don't share everything together but we do understand each other a lot. Like there is a lot of things in common. And sometimes we will even have the same thinking or even say the same thing at the same time. That is how close we are. I will treasure this friendship with all my heart and will never ever let anything to happen to this friendship. I want to grow old with her and will always be there for her whenever i can.

Today is a very tiring day for me because there is so many things waiting for me to finish up. It's like taking me forever to finish up all the things. There is a submission today that need to be finished up and people keep passing me other stuff. I feels like i almost gone crazy with all the stuff on my desk. But i feels better now after i finish up the project that is due today...

This is my day...

MC for 2 days!!!

I have fall sick and doctor have given me 2 days of MC. For this two days i manage to rest a bit but i still get sleepless night. Don't know what is wrong with me. Am i getting insomnia? Really don't know what is wrong with me. I hope that everything will be fine soon so that i can sleep well at night. This stupid headache is killing me very much.

Did not do much on this two days on MC. On the first day , i went over to dear house to rest and after that we went to have lunch with his colleague then went back to office to do something. After that we went to watch Harry Potter the new series. It's really a nice movie. Really can't wait for the second part to come out. Not sure when will it be coming out. Some say December and some say next year. So not sure when will the second part coming out. Will definitely going to catch it. And there is so much nice movie in the cinema coming out soon like Yogi Bear. Am so going to watch it too.

So after the movie we went back home and it's already 1 plus in the morning. But yet i still did not manage to sleep after i eat the sleeping pill that the doctor gave me. Don't really know what is wrong. Maybe there is too much things inside my mind that is why i can't sleep. Because whenever i close my eyes, there is flash of images but i am not sure what it is because it's all very blur.

And today i woke up around 8.55am to call MOM to inquire something regarding my mum's work permit. Then after that i fall back to sleep and wake up around 10 plus. Then i went to meet my dear to accompany him to see doctor for this acne face to get some consultation. Then after seeing doctor we went to have lunch and then i follow him back to his office. At first i wanted to go home to rest but he is scare that i will be bored at home, so he ask me to go along with him and watch my drama here in his office. Feels kind of weird but i do like to be around him.

Lazy Saturday

It's Saturday, and i think today the the day where i sleep the most which i woke up around 10.30am. Normally i would have already wake up around 8am or 9am and shower and do my things before my dear wake up and sms me. But today is special that i woke up at 10.30 and went to shower and when i come into the room i receive my dear sms and know that he is awake. Normally he will wake up so much later than i am. This proves that i did wake up late today. Haha...

So after reading his sms i went to prepare and get my stuff to go over to his place. We have already plan to watch movie at home. So after reaching there, i help him to heat up his breakfast and we share the breakfast together. Which is just a very simple pao and a kaya and butter bread that his mum always prepare for them every morning. We eat while watching TV and it starts to get bored then i took out my laptop and start playing games on facebook.

I got a little frustrated by the laptop because it's really slow. And it took about half and hour to load my game on facebook. Then we have a little arguement about who install the google too bar. Then we went silent about 30 or 45min before he tell me that he is hungry. Then i went to prepare our lunch and after that lunch we catch a very old Stephen Chow's movie called 007. The movie is really really old but it's really hilarious and it did make the both of us laugh. Then after that movie we went to his room and watch TV again and very soon his dad came back because it's already 6 plus in the evening. And it's soon time for dinner. After his mum came back 15mins later than his dad we decided to go out to buy some food back as dinner.

We went to buy the nice 'Hokkien Mee' again. But this time it's not really that nice and i almost did not finish the noodle. After that we watch TV again for awhile and he prepare to go out to have a drink with his uni-friends. So he drove there and i drove the car back in case he needs me to pick him up after the drink. So i came back home and do my stuff. We have plan to go for a jog together tomorrow after he wake up. So just hope that he is not too tired to go for a jog with me tomorrow.

It's weekend already

What a nice day. Time pass so fast and it's already weekend. And two more weeks will be end of November and Christmas is coming soon. The time to solve my problem is reaching soon. Just one more week and my dateline is here. I am so scare that i am confuse and frustrating. I even argue with my best friend. What have gotten into me. I should not have make that move in the first place, but i really don't have other choices. What i need to do now is to hope that this will be settle soon. I don't want to spoil my relationship with my best buddy. It will be a waste if i spoil my relationship with my best buddy because of this matter. Can someone tell me what am i suppose to do.

I am angry and also confuse and i feels frustrated. I am trying to calm myself down. Trying very hard not to argue back with her. But sometime whatever she says really make me angry. That is when anger starts to take over my mind. Anyway it's already weekend. It's Friday night and as usual nothing special about Friday to me anymore. Last time when times are good, normally i will be out with my best buddy. Either to walk around or just went clubbing. But now, time have change. A lot of things have changed. No longer the same old me anymore.

After work i went over to look for my dear to have dinner with him. We went to Geylang to have dinner at a place where he mention to me before that the Hokkien Mee is very nice and the chili is super spicy and i would really like to try how spicy can the chili be. End up it's really what i did not expect it to be. It's spicy and it's nice with the well cook Hokkien Mee. It's match like there is not other things in this world, or should i say that it's a very nice combination. Love it very much and also we did order fried oyster. It's really nice as well because the oyster is really nice. Not like those that you eat at other hawker stall or food stall. The oyster have fishy smell, but this when you put it into your mouth, you know that it's really fresh. But just that it's a bit too oily for my preference.

After that nice dinner we went back home and spend some time together watching TV on Octo channel. It's a documentary night should the most monstrous fish that you can found in the Amazon river. I forget what is the name of the fish, but it's from the catfish family. It's really small and it can really penetrate into a human body or a dead fish and eat up all the organs inside the fish or human body. There is this victim, that the fish bit him and find it's way into his body and he have to went for an operation to get the fish out of his body before the fish eats up his organ. They are also history about a man that his whole body organs been eaten by 100s of this fish. And there is also another case which a giant catfish swallow the whole human body. Can you imagine that how big the catfish have to be to swallow up a whole adult human body. Isn't it scary. I do think that Amazon River is the most scariest river in the whole world wish living creature like this live under the river. Not to mention piranha.

Then after this we watch a documentary of the survivors that almost lost their lives. There are two case. One which survive the attack of a Great White Shark and the other survive from the attack of a rattle snake. This guys are really amazing and i am sure that they will treasure their lives even more after what have happen to them which changes their lives.

What a boring day at work

It's a very boring day at work today. Nothing much to do except revising one of the project cover page which due tomorrow. Have been surfing the internet for the whole day. Lucky there is no director in today if not i will be even more bored or might even fall asleep on my desk.

Watch a few video that is post by some friends in facebook. Some are quite funny and some are very meaningful. One of the video that i watch was a song sung by a Hong Kong singer. The song is for the future generation about what is good and what is bad. What the future holds for them and what are dreams about. It's really meaningful. After listening to it i share it with all my facebook friends. Especially those that are younger than me. Hope that it can teach them a lesson.

Then have been browsing my friends pictures. A lot of my friends have already got married and also have 2 to 3 kids. But there are still some which is like me. Either still single or already been dating for a few years. Sometimes i do feels envy to those that have already got married and also already have a kid or two. Because i like kids a lot. But maybe they will have a different view from mine. Maybe they will hope that they are like me. Still single and enjoying life either with friends or with their loved one. Sometimes things can't be predict from only one side. Each person in this world have different views of their own. Have been thinking a lot. About my future and stuff.

Anyway it's a really boring day for me. After work today, i went to meet Kira to return her back the memory card that i use to take picture during out trip to JB. We meet at Outram Park mrt and then went to eat porridge and have a short talk before we leave because both of us are very tired. She still needs to travel a long way home. So have to leave early. Both of us have a lot of problems which will not be solved easily. It might take sometimes to solve all this problem but i am sure that we will be able to face all this. Like my dear said, i will soon wake up from this nightmare...

What a good day..

It's a very nice day today. Sleep till quite late and then done all my house chores. My dear went to have gathering with his friends. So i got the morning time for myself and sleep so well. After that he came back and pick me up and then we went to Jurong Point to walk around and he meet his client to sign something. After walking around then we went back home and thought to relax and watch movie then later at night will have dinner with his parents.

But his parents wanted to go to JB for shopping and then also have dinner over there, then we take our passport and went straight in to JB. First stop is at Pelangi Mall Giant. We shop for around 1 and half hour. Bought a lot of groceries there. Rice, detergent, milk, etc.. Then after that we went to have dinner at a nearby pasar malam. The dinner was not bad. We have rice and also different type of soup and then there is a stingray as well. Not a bad dinner.

I really enjoy spending time with my dear and also his parents. Although i don't have much to talk to them. But i am happy that he did spend time with his parents and not only with me and his friends. I realize that my dear is really a good man. I don't think i will ever find another man which is as good as him. I feels that i am so fortunate to have such a good boyfriend. I don't know whether this relationship will lead to another level or not, but i do hope that our relationship will gets better and better. I just want to treasure this relationship with him as much as i can.

What a wonderful day i have with my dear and his family..

Me and my family....

It's been such a long time that i did not post anything here on blogger and almost forget about it. I even forget what my password is. A lot of things have been happening to me and my family recently. It's a long long story of what have happen. Anyway half of the things have been settle. What i am hoping for right now is for things to be better from now onwards. My heart aches to see my family member suffer like that especially my parents. I just don't wish anything bad happen to them. They have been working really hard for half of their life to make our living comfortable. I wanted so much to provide them comfort. I will never give up and have to be strong and take good care of them, no matter it's now or in the future.

Before everything happen, me and my best friend (Kira) plan to go for a holiday to enjoy ourself. And finally we booked ourself a 3 days 2 night stay at a resort in JB which is the cheapest that we can find in the internet. After we have paid for the booking then things happen very badly. All this things happen to fast for me to even believe that it's happening. Anyway our holiday was really fun and relaxing. We went there during the Deepavali holiday because that is a long weekend since the holiday falls on Friday. I went there with Kira and also Ben. Ben is from Holland and i have only knew him for almost 1 month now. He is a colleague of Kira. Notreally sure why he is here with us. Anyway it's really a nice holiday. The name of the resort is Mercure Johor Palm Resort and Golf. Recommended to those who wan to enjoy the fun time with family and also a quite and nice place to rest and relax. This place is not bad. The environment is very nice just that the food is a bit too expensive but still affordable. The meals that i like most is the American breakfast, The Bar club sandwich and also the Chinese restaurant there.

After the holiday i got myself a really tan complexion.Thanks to all the swimming and also outdoor activities. After all the relax that i have enjoy it's time to come back and face all the problems that have been waiting to be solved. Like i mention half of it have been solved. Just that the other half really have no idea how to solved it yet.

It's so nice to write again after so long. I will try to write as much as i can in the future. Oh yeah, there is something that i wanted to share with everyone. Recently i have been really close to one of my bf's friend gf. I am not sure whether you understand it or not. But it's really cool. we almost message each other everyday and whenever we have time. I did went out to have lunch with her once. It's really cool and i am happy to know her. Okie this is my post for today. Will write again tomorrow..