Feeling Weird

Tue 15 Sept 09

I don't know wat is happening to me today. I hv been hving this weird feelings the first thing i wake up in the morning. Is it because i think too much or i did not get enough rest? As i remember i nv hv this kind of weird feelings for quiet sometime and now it's all back again. Why do i feel it this way?

Why do i feel so unsecure? Why can't i trust him? Why do i always let the past haunt me like tat? Why is all this happening to me? Sometimes i just don't understand why is it all hv to be like this? I find myself very annoying at times because i will do something tat i think will annoyed ppl. And i know tat it will annoyed ppl and yet i still do it. Why?

I always ask myself whether i treat him good enough or not. He told me tat i hv already treat him very good, but how come i don't feel it tat way? How come i still feel tat i hv not done enough for him? I think maybe i think too much by myself, or maybe because of the past tat is the cause of all this. Ppl always tell me to let go of the past. I hv tried to let it go and i hv really tried, but why is it still the same. I just don't hv enough confidence in myself.

Maybe i am really not good at all...