Sept 17
Have been doing a lot of readings lately from wikipedia. But what i am reading is all those history or as wat ppl always said myth. Yesterday i am reading about mermaids, triton, gorgons, fairies and stuff. I find it very interesting. Somehow this kind of things really attracts me.
The other day i am more weird because i am reading about King Henry the VIII. He is a britain king which married for 6 times just to get himself a heir for his throne. Of all his wives they all end up being execute or died. But at last his 4th wife gave him a son which is King Edward VI but he did not live for long. He died at the age of 15. Somehow i find all this really interesting.
Today i am reading about Van Helsing. Sometimes i do hope that this world do have vampires, werewolves, fairies, mermaid... doesn't it sound more interesting? Ok i am back to my reading...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Feeling Weird
Tue 15 Sept 09
I don't know wat is happening to me today. I hv been hving this weird feelings the first thing i wake up in the morning. Is it because i think too much or i did not get enough rest? As i remember i nv hv this kind of weird feelings for quiet sometime and now it's all back again. Why do i feel it this way?
Why do i feel so unsecure? Why can't i trust him? Why do i always let the past haunt me like tat? Why is all this happening to me? Sometimes i just don't understand why is it all hv to be like this? I find myself very annoying at times because i will do something tat i think will annoyed ppl. And i know tat it will annoyed ppl and yet i still do it. Why?
I always ask myself whether i treat him good enough or not. He told me tat i hv already treat him very good, but how come i don't feel it tat way? How come i still feel tat i hv not done enough for him? I think maybe i think too much by myself, or maybe because of the past tat is the cause of all this. Ppl always tell me to let go of the past. I hv tried to let it go and i hv really tried, but why is it still the same. I just don't hv enough confidence in myself.
Maybe i am really not good at all...
I don't know wat is happening to me today. I hv been hving this weird feelings the first thing i wake up in the morning. Is it because i think too much or i did not get enough rest? As i remember i nv hv this kind of weird feelings for quiet sometime and now it's all back again. Why do i feel it this way?
Why do i feel so unsecure? Why can't i trust him? Why do i always let the past haunt me like tat? Why is all this happening to me? Sometimes i just don't understand why is it all hv to be like this? I find myself very annoying at times because i will do something tat i think will annoyed ppl. And i know tat it will annoyed ppl and yet i still do it. Why?
I always ask myself whether i treat him good enough or not. He told me tat i hv already treat him very good, but how come i don't feel it tat way? How come i still feel tat i hv not done enough for him? I think maybe i think too much by myself, or maybe because of the past tat is the cause of all this. Ppl always tell me to let go of the past. I hv tried to let it go and i hv really tried, but why is it still the same. I just don't hv enough confidence in myself.
Maybe i am really not good at all...
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