Angry over something small

My bf went to sentosa island with his friends yesterday for an outing. At first everything is fine. I actually don't really mind that he went outing with his friends because i trust him and i believe that to make a relationship work, you got to give each other their own space. I still ask him to enjoy himself. Things happen after my yoga class.

I msg him when i finish showering after my yoga class. Then he called and ask me how am i. As usual i just ask him how is his outing with his friends, and he told me that not too bad but a lot did not turn up. At that time i am just teasing him when he is going to bring me there. And the answer that i got is i have already been there with some other guys. I know that i have been to sentosa before but it's different. I go there to take photograph and not enjoying. I just want to go there to relax and enjoy the beach with him and that is the answer that i got from him. Out of sudden i just get so angry and don't feel like talking to him.

I know it's just a small matter because he think that sentosa is not really a nice place for couples to go for dating but i don't know why i get so angry. I don't normally get angry because of such small matter. But i don't know why this time i just got so hot.

Does love really make a person out of their mind? Is it because it really matter that he does not want to go to places that you wish to go with you? Will you just get angry because it's just a small matter and you know that it's not really a big deal? Is love really blind that will cause you think sideways?

It's been such a long time i did not write. Have been living very happily here at my new place. It's already been staying here for 3 month. I think i am more happy staying here than any other place. Although it's a bit hard for me on the financial side but i am still fine. What to do... just got to work hard lor.

As for work, everything went fine just that sometimes it's a bit bored. Have the thinking of changing job but with the economy like that no one dare to move. It will be hard to look for job. Some more this is an international company. Should be safe to be here. Woking here have been like a robot. It's like everyday doing the same old things and stuff.

As for love life, everything still went smoothly. Maybe because we are still in the honeymoon period so everything is still very sweet. I really don't know what will happen after the honeymoon period. Hope that things will not change too much for the both of us. I like the way it is right now. But can really tell that he really loves me a lot and he can give me anything that i want. He is working very hard to earn more for future. I am not very sure whether we are going to be together or not in the future because his planning is to get married after 5 yrs. What i know right now is that i feel blissful to have him with me.

What is love actually. Sometimes i use to have this kind of feeling of happy and fear. Recently i have a lot of friends who is planning to get married. And i have this jealous feeling. Why do i have such feelings? There is this guy that use to chase me last time and i have rejected him. He is going to propose to his girlfriend soon. He seems to be very successful in his career. He is now looking for their love nest. In a way i feels happy for him but in the same time i feels jealous. If i were to accept him that time i might be married too. But too bad that i don't have feelings for him.

Sometimes i will think that will he propose to me. 5 yrs seems to be a very long period. Haha... maybe i can't wait to be married.

Hahaha don't know what am i talking liao le...